I started my career life in the film industry, working on film sets in the costume department. It was fun, long days, lots of money, lavish parties, and meeting many famous actor/actresses. However I came to realize something was missing, I didn't see the meaning in any of it.
In the year 2000, after 8 years of that lifestyle, I ventured on a 4 month back=packing/ soul searching trip to the outback of Australia and the jungles of Thailand. That is when I had time to contemplate a new purpose as I was immersed in nature daily (God's Beauty). Shortly after my return home, I left the film industry and registered for a 2 year Massage Therapy school program. I spent the next 20 years studying many different healing methods and religions.
I was raised in the Catholic Faith, baptized and confirmed as a child. I studied catechism until my early teens. And then I went away from the Church for a very long time. I lived in the world of materialism and could never find true happiness. I would have deep moments with God and knew He was always with me, yet I was not always with God.
In 2014, I met a homeless man who confronted me about worshipping false idols and having no clear spiritual direction. He insisted I return to the Catholic Faith. I took his advice, and when I did I found great happiness and peace, reciting the rosary and going to church. But I did not stay. Why? Because I was foolish and thought I could make it on my own. When you have lived a life in sinful, selfish ways for so many years, it can be a challenge to stay with the Truth and not be pulled away by the world.
In December 2022, I surrendered. I gave my life to Jesus Christ, witnessed by one of my Christian friends who also participated in the New Age movement for years. I returned to the Catholic Faith for a 2nd time. Again I experienced great happiness, that does not come from worldly things, only comes through the grace of God. After 6 months, I left again. Why? Again I was pulled away by the tempting of others who were not believers. Jesus says we must build our faith and church on a solid rock foundation. Even though I was trying, my past was pulling hard on me.
In September 2023, I fell sick with one thing after another. One night I watched the film "Song of St. Bernadette" and my faith was rekindled. God had given me a message through seeing her devotion it was time to come HOME to Him for the 3rd and final time. I then faced the greatest test of all, "STAYING."
I have learned through all my life experiences that the Christian Path can be challenging, yet with great challenges come great rewards. Rewards do not come to those who sit home and wait. The rewards of happiness and peace in this life, along with Eternal bliss, come to those who persevere.
How I PERSEVER is:- I attend mass every day to receive the Eucharist and Spiritual Direction through the Word of God, and through the homily of the priest. I need to bask in the presence of the Lord to keep me strong and on track. I spend time with Jesus daily in meditation and with the Blessed Sacrament in adoration. I recite the rosary with others and end my day with scripture reading. I do service work for others which keeps me humble and brings me a great deal of joy. And when I make mistakes, I go to confession to repent, clean my conscious, and to amend my life. A very important element to my sanctity is in surrounding myself with others of like-mind. These are all powerful practices to overcome the temptations of this world.
"For where two or more are gathered in my name, I am there among them." - Matthew 18:20
Praise to Lord Jesus Christ, God the Father & the Holy Spirit. Truly, I am blessed!